Dear Future Husband…..

I know you are out there somewhere. I may not know who you are right now. I do want to know who you are but I do know I am not ready to be married right now. I also know that I want to get married in the future but right now is definitely not for me. 

I have been single for a little over two years now since the last serious relationship I was in. I am happy that I am single right now. I do not think I am ready to be in a relationship at the moment. I know when we meet, we will know that it will be forever. I hope you will give me a lot of patience and love with what I have dealt with in the past. I am still trying to recover from that serious relationship. I do still get angry at times about what happened.

For some reason, when I have been on dates with guys I have been nitpicking everything about the guy. It has been bugging me that I have been doing that with every single guy. I am getting tired of that. I feel like kicking myself for going out on the dates with all of those guys as well as nitpicking everything about them.

I have been thinking of questions on how I met you, have I met you back in elementary school, and much more. I wonder how we will met or if we already have met. It would be crazy if we met back in elementary school. I have this gut feeling that it is probably not how we meet at all. 

Just let me tell you this, I am excited for the future holds for the both of us. I know we will go through thick and thin together. We will grow more as an individual and as a couple. I know we will have a lot of fun together and enjoy life together.